To judge.

Who are we to judge others' lives? To cut to the point, when one receives news relating to a maid abuser, a thief, a bully, a murderer, etc, how should one respond? Do we hurl harsh words to them, the baddies? Do we pity the victims the most? Or, should we realise that the bully is the ultimate victim, falling into his very own trap which he doesn't know of?

If we just read this, Matthew 7: 1-5.
"Do not judge, or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, "Let me take the speck out of your eye," when all the time there is a plank in you own eye? You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother's eye."

The weightage of the consequence of lying is equivalent to the weightage of the consequence of murdering. One may think that lying(even to a loved one) does not send himself to a death sentence and he would receive a lighter punishment. He's wrong. The sins we've done, be it one or countless, will all cost us eternal death.

But with God's love and way, we can indeed avoid eternal death; Jesus had paid the price for us. However, our physical existence will be gone; we will still face death, a physical death. By the way, for prebelievers, you may think this is rot, won't blame you, it's overwhelming for me but I've believed and will not be shaken and stay strong in His stronghold. We have done some things which aren't glorifying to God, who are we to judge the rest?

One should ask himself why the bully did it, in what circumstances was the bully brought up in, was he ever shown the right path to learn and live, who really loved him? Did someone pamper him? All these questions tells about the entire situation. Bullies don't have a right frame of mind; they think they are really sober and really know what they are doing. Who on earth will say that they are wrong when they don't know what they have actually stepped into and perhaps feel that they have power? Who would admit and change for the better?

The victims (the bullied) have a right frame of mind, they know how much the bully will suffer in the end (don't they, deep down?). The latter's suffering is much more than theirs'. It's the bully who is suffering and yet doesn't feel the pain till the end. It's like a drug abuser sniffing glue and becomes really high, and when the police investigate him, he's sent to the hospital with a doctor poking a huge needle into him, and yet the drug abuser doesn't feel it, instead, he smiles and laughs, unaware of his future.

It's also sad that sometimes we aren't empathetic towards the bully, not that we should support him, but to bring him to the right path, to show him the way, to carry him up from his fall. And to truly forgive and forget the past. This, I say, is compassion, grace and mercy to the "enemy" (the only enemy is just Satan). In fact, none of us deserve grace and what not. But GOD gave us those, thus we should also show them to others. Know what grace is? Grace is undeserving favor upon one.

More to know.

Sheesh! I hope I don't have anymore doubts about the Bible. Like, "Where does the Bible come from? How was it written and by who? And how is it that by different eras and different areas, all the books of the Bible are able to connect?"

The answer is :
GOD SPOKE TO SOME PEOPLE OF DIFFERENT PARTS AND DIFFERENT TIMINGS OF THE WORLD! SO OBVIOUSLY, PEOPLE DIDN'T PLAN OR HATCH A MISUNDERSTANDING ABLE OTHERS' RELIGIONS AS THEY, THE PEOPLE WHOM GOD SENT VISIONS AND TALKED TO, DIDN'T EVEN KNOW ONE ANOTHER AND THEY WERE OF DIFFERENT RACES AND ERAS!

GOT IT????

I admit it! I've never felt so reassured knowing all these. I thought that the books of the Bible were being passed down generation to generation; era to era and places to places, thus being copied over and over again down till this day where all the Churches came together because of a vision GOD gave to the leaders of the Churches and compiled all the books together.

So yes! The LORD is miraculous! He withstands time! LOVE HIM ALWAYS!!!!!!! Pre-believers! If you were wondering and doubting, this is the explanation.

Moreover, our GOD is special and different from others! Why!? Because He loved us first! Not us loving Him first! We also just don't obey Him, we LOVE Him first! He seeks us first! Not us praying to Him so that he will listen to us, He has already and has always listened and looked out for us, guiding us, making paths for us, loving us even before the Universe was even created!

As to why we were created, we were to worship Him! His angel, Lucifer, now called Satan, was worshipping Him all the way until he thought that he himself should be worshipped for him great and beautiful music which also exists in our world (you know Satanic music? yeah.). So GOD felt lonely and created us to share His goodness, not only to worship Him. Well, we were created by GOD and thus of course worship Him naturally, it's not some kind of a slavery thing to do. BUT! We were lost to Satan and yet to get us back to His side, he had to purchase us by sacrificing His begotten Son, Jesus Christ as a price.

SO YEAH! If there's any pre-believers who still have doubts, questions and wants to rebut me about Christianity, DO LET ME KNOW!!!

There are.

There are times when we want to say somethings out loud, to confess, haha I've got plenty which I still won't tell to anyone 'cept GOD. Well, He knows it before I confess, so I don't confess my thoughts. Only admit them. Admit and confess are two different things.

It's something to which one hopes it would be certain before telling out it's thoughts. Days will always pass on, and yes, it's silly to say remind others that the days pass by quickly or slowly. Time always goes on, no matter whether you want it to slow down or fasten up.

Some take their time to speak up. So what can one do to speed things up? What I really want to say is that, SOME THINGS HAVE TO BE BELIEVED SO THAT THEY CAN BE SEEN. I've said this over and over again I believe. Learnt that from the author of Many Waters. Don't really bother to remember the spelling of her name. I guess in whatever you want, you wait for GOD's signal.

I've always.

I've always been thinking, don't get it wrong, other than sleeping. Even when I drift off to sleep. GOD's really marvelous. How should I put it? I think of the really weird stuff, how things would be like whenever I could have changed directions from a turning point or crossroad. There were and will always be times when I wished I said something better to others when having conversations. Of how I could say so much more things but I don't know why I restrained them sometimes; what I wanted to say turned out a different way. Like how you want to apologise to someone and then you think (you cannot stop) of how you're going to say it, probably in the most touching and sincere way (sometimes dramatic too). Funny how it can turn out when you suddenly lose your presumed say and sputter only phrases.
There will always be many possibilities and many turns. However, we create unchangeable life stories on the spot to which there will be consequences. Action, reaction. It's indeed good to daydream sometimes (would want to say at an appropriate timing?), letting your mind wander off and find a tinge of inspiration. Every day is neither a lucky nor an unlucky day. Every day is a blessed day to which has plenty of chances and possibilities. Opportunities come! Oh, and we will do our very BEST in whatever we do which is GOD's way too! SO THERE!

Dedications to my dear friends!

I know, I know. This Blog shouldn't be too personal, BUT! This is a testimony of mine about my Sec 2 friendship life and I want to declare it! Partly because my dear friends had both written dedications to me and the other. And Cheryl Yeo! I won't forget you, though I must admit I've been so lazy as to take out a pen and write letters or even email you. Sorry if you are reading this man (I'll make one for you one day, a really special one, won't forget this promise I make)! LOVE YOU GALS ALWAYS! Right, let's start!

Firstly, Alicia Tan!
Man! You weren't my type of friend
I wanted to hang out with in Primary School.
We were of 2 different worlds!
But let's not talk of the silly past
as no one's perfect!
Dude! I don't know!
But when I was in Sec 1 and
we were in different classed then,
you changed because of GOOD Priscilla Lim!
Love her for changing your ways!
LOVE you for what and who you really are!
Even though you can be clumsy and
such a health and clean dear old freak!
I love a friend who's like that you know!
It makes me think twice of whether to eat
rice which dropped on the table!
Tee hee! You just make me learn how to be
CHILDISH and RELAXED at times!
I never imagined I would
actually talk babyish in front of you gals
and be crazy and lame and full of laughter!
You are my MISS CURIOUS!!!
And Miss blur too!
Whenever you have a book in
your hands,
I always wonder how long you'll take to finish it!
HAHA! But I know and believe that you always take the
time to read such good books!
And lady!
Don't keep changing your
Blog add. 'k?
Got to relink you time and time again!
Funny you!
Will always love your Blog though!
Sorry whenever I make a fuss
out of something small and
you got to pacify me
as though I'm a baby!
You are one miracle girl!

Secondly, KATELYN!!!

My dear Kit-kat!
A dear friend whom I first talked to in Sec 1!
Someone whom I barely know!
Actually became my funny and dearest friend!
I know that I've been crazy sometimes,
upsetting you,
makin' you cry such that
you won't talk to me...
*Sigh*
BUT! You will always return to normal
just as a kettle would cool down somehow!
I know that you know you have been
a temperamental and sensitive child
AND YET! I can SEE that
you have changed!
You know what!
Although there are times when we argue over silly stuff,
you COOL DOWN DARN FAST!
I'm sincerely sorry
for what I've done
be it my fault or yours
or even both
even though I've done them over and over
last time and even now...
TEE HEE!
Every time I see both of you gals in Choir,
I know I will survive even though I'm
in Alto and you in Sops!
I feel sad sometimes that you gals
aren't with me during sectionals.
HAHA! Whenever I'm stuck
in my work
You Katelyn, the smarty-pants,
will help me!
Oh LADY!
How FUNNY and RIDICULOUS (yet make sense)
you can be at times when
I ought to relax and
take things easy!
You'll tell me that!
All of us can be childish people at times
when it's okay!
And of course
when you glare
I feel scared, haha!
Don't know if you mean it sometimes
but things always return to norm.
Thanks for always CHEERING ME UP!
YET ANOTHER MIRACLE IN MY LIFE!!!

THANKS ALWAYS FOR BEING WITH ME THROUGH THICK AND THIN AS A GOOD BESTIE FRIEND!!! YOU ARE ALL ANGELS WHOM GOD SENT!!! YOU KNOW I CAN ALWAYS COUNT ON YOU GALS!!! I WONDER HOW MANY PEOPLE CAN EVER HAVE SUCH GOOD FRIENDS IN THE WORLD!

AND READERS OUT THERE! I CHOOSE TO SHOW OFF THESE TWO FRIENDS OF MINE TO THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD AS A GOOD TESTIMONY!

Do I sound strange?

Just wondering- A short testimony.

Different from what I thought about things last year... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... yeah ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ever since the Encounter... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... guess what?! I paid my tithes 'cause it's actually a sin not to... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... I got pocket money right? That's considered as my pay... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... been thinking about it ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... my life has been so much better! ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... I don't know why ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... but it gets better and better every moment ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... of my life!

Let's see...

I wonder if anyone can give me answers to these questions I'm asking:

1. What happened to those people who died before Jesus came down to Earth and became our bridge to Heaven?
2. What about babies which didn't survive?
3. Who created GOD? Can he just be there already as the Bible said that He is the Alpha and the Omega? I guess it's just that simple. Trust Him anyways.
4. If we are eternally with GOD in Heaven, then will we ever get bored as time goes on and on? Will there be a cycle, something like a reincarnation? No, there won't 'cause the Bible says so. I pray that GOD will give us the unexpected.
5. Why did GOD create us? How can one say that He loves us so he created us? How can one love something before creating it? Perhaps the idea of creating one. I must have heard wrongly or the person must've interpreted wrongly. Anyway, all I need to know is that He loves us above all. He's the only one you can totally rely on and be proud to show off!
6. Outside this space, outside this galaxy and outside this universe, what else has GOD created?
7. Does GOD actually know the future? NO, I guess not. Fate does not exist in Him. We are the ones making the future. We cannot see the future, only predict it. What's past is past. The present becomes the past too, so does the future. If future was possible, there should be visitors from the future. Then some reasons could be that we can't see and touch them or even hear them.
8. Should there be real ghosts? NO, there are only Satan's followers and himself deceiving us. Those who claim to see ghosts are mistaken. We don't linger on Earth, we either go up to Heaven or down to Hell eternally.
9. In whatever we do, sins or not, there will always be consequences to follow only in the one life we have now. There is no hell for us after death for a short while.
10. There are no big sins nor small sins. A person lying is as sinful as a person murdering another. So why give death sentences? Then, will the consequences be the same for all our sins?
11. Will there be a NEW HEAVEN and a NEW WORLD when this present world ends?
12. Can Satan ever change and return to GOD? Can everyone eventually return to GOD? Or is the word "Satan" just a word for the absence of GOD's love? Or is Satan actually one person? Isn't it sad that Satan can't return to GOD? This is also one proof that GOD allows you to control your own life. He only loves you, provides for you and guides you.

In concl.

In all these questions I ask everyone who reads this post, I still and will always believe in GOD no matter what happens soon. Put all our trust in GOD and follow his flow. There are times when we have to believe to be able to see.