Something to say.

Whenever I think about reaching out to people about the gospel, I'm always afraid of the questions they may ask. Questions like, "Aren't all religions the same?", "You still so fat, not rich, still sick, etc...even though you say that your God helps and blesses you abundantly. How come?" and many others. Of all the questions, I have one question in my mind that literally leaves me stressed, crying to God for an answer. This question is "What has God done for you in your life?". Perhaps many Christians can truly say that they have experienced many miracles and they have been part of miracles in other people's lives. I have too! I could answer a prebeliever that I'm still living, my parents are still alive too, my family is not rich but we have happiness...etc. But! My prebeliever friend will say, "Me too! And I don't worship your God.". What I mean is that, what I have to me are indeed blessings, but my friend will say that what I have is what she has and furthermore, she does not worship my God. Thus my so-called blessings are nothing to her. I believe you readers understand this, if not, try to understand this. I admit that I've been somewhat depressed today. The next two Fridays I'll be evangelising with the Youth from my Church in or outside a shopping mall. We will be meeting all sorts of people who will probably ask us lots of skeptical questions, most of which I can only depend on God to answer from my heart. And no, I'm never going to commit suicide. I read the Bible this late afternoon, literally crying to God for a sharp answer. I really cannot tell if the Holy Spirit is in me or not.

Some people have it even though they cannot speak in tongues. There are also Churches who disapprove or don't seek for this gift. Some prebelievers get scared when they see Christians speaking in tongues, thinking that the latter are possessed. But I can tell you that being able to speak in tongues is a joy to me if I can one day! This means that there truly is a Holy spirit in me! Tongues are languages which you have probably never heard of. Christians have no idea what language they are speaking, but they know that they are praising God. Other people can also interpret what the other Christian is saying and tells, especially to the prebelievers in Church, what God is saying through the other Christian. Speaking in tongues is a witness to prebelievers. The first time I wanted to speak in tongues was mostly because I thought it was cool and I could show off to my friends. Perhaps it was why God didn't give this gift to me even till now. He doesn't want me to misuse it. Right now, I shall wait patiently and eagerly (I don't think impatient=eager btw.) for Him to fill me with the Holy spirit! Again, it is nothing wrong if even at my last breath, I can't speak in tongues. I won't be filled with bitterness. If you remember the thief who was crucified along with Jesus and accepted Him as Lord and saviour, he hadn't got the time to speak in tongues and yet, he will be with the Lord. Anyway, you can praise God with any language!

So as I was saying before getting sidetracked, as I don't know if the Holy Spirit is in me or not, I don't know if I got an answer from God. But this is what I'll add to what I'll always say if anybody ever asks me this question, "Because of Him, I'm able to see all these as blessings. Because of Him, I'm able to see that I'm blessed with many things. Even though I don't have a nice figure and I'm not rich, I can still feel absolutely blessed because I can live without these things as I have Him who gives me what I really need. With God, you can feel that everything is fair in the world. Even if I'm to be killed by someone who gets away with the crime, I shall be glad that it could be a chance for him to turn himself in and get a lighter sentence, or at least have another chance to know God before turning himself in. I mean, look, anything can happen! And if I have a bad habit which is hard to get rid of, I believe that it is a blessing in disguise. This is like a test or some procedure which makes me grow stronger in my Faith in God. And when I can finally get rid of my bad habit, the happiness is beyond comprehension. Hope you know what I mean!"

Another thing is, I didn't know there are people who think that religions are meant for only weak people. You know what I think? Even if you are a very strong person, my take is that you will be an even stronger person with Jesus as not even the strongest person's perfect and without worry. Everyone was born naked and weak. We all need a God to depend on. Other religions btw. say that one cannot touch their God or Gods and goddesses as they are sacred and we are impure. True, we are sinners, not perfect and unclean. But my God cleanses our sins with His very own blood. He also wants a Father-child relationship with us. He is unlike other Gods. That's our God! Those who don't believe that there's a God, please ask yourselves how you were created and think if it is weird that you are created without a purpose in life and even after life. Hope you can see what I mean!